Sad Departure of Ramadhan

131104 (Saturday):
While other people rejoice on the eve of Syawal, I grieved. It was too overwhelming for me that the blessed Ramadhan passed me by (I wished I could have done more to garner all the benefits of this holy month). Mum asked if I wanted to buy a set of new clothings (she felt sad that I didn't have a new baju kurung this year) but I declined. Idulfitri is not about new clothes, shoes, etc. To me its about the spiritual cleansing of one's soul. I admit I have not been a perfect person, but am taking the time to learn and be a better person for myself, for mum and those loved ones dear to me.

Sometimes, we are so focused on our own insecurities or our own 'world' that we do not see the bigger picture; A colleague asked me once "Why are you so busy when the company is not paying you, etc?" To me, its not the fear of humans that worries me; regardless... I am still answerable to Almighty Allah. Life may seem on the downhill for me now, but it just proves that I have to have a stronger faith in GOD's will for only Allah is foreknowing on what is the best for me and I have to be ikhlas (sincere) and accept whatever comes my way with an open heart, Inna lillahi wa inna iillaihi rojiun (from him we came, to him we shall return).

I end my blog today with a poem from a dear friend (thank you, Sha):

MOMENTS IN LIFE
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much
that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!
When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the closed door
that we don't see the one, which has been opened for us.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile, because
it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

Find the one that makes your heart smile.
Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go; be what you want to be,
because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human and
enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything
that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always be
based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until
you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling
and everyone around you is crying.